Ok there is only 40 days left before the black belt grading and 40 days before today if asked if I was grading this year I would have answered confidently “Yes”. Now I am not sure, I am seriously having a lot of doubts on my ability to be able to pass. Physically I think I am not in good enough shape, I still get winded easily and have to resort to using an inhaler more often then not just to catch my breath, and at times I feel as if I am going to black out. I am also having doubts on my abilities to be able do the forms and techniques correctly when ask to do them. It seams that the closer the grading gets the more befuddled I get.
I think this is going to be the greatest challenge I may have to face on the road to being a black belt (I thought memorizing “Mastery by Stewart Emery” was tough) but now I have to master my anxiety and fears about testing and regain my confidence in my self.
40 days is such a short time!
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Thursday, July 8, 2010
Summer Time
Well its summer time and the weather is nice, not to hot and with a bit of rain here and there. With summer comes the end of training in Onoway until school starts up in the fall again. This is the first year that I have continued my training during the summer months at the Stony Plain Kwoon not wanting to slack off during these nice summer months.
So far it has been great training with a bunch of new people, helping out different Sifu’s that I have only seen once or twice and never while they where teaching their classes. It is a new perspective quite different then the mixed classes that we have in Onoway.
Something that I have been noticing for awhile in the Sihing class and now in the Teen and Adults classes is the some of the techniques that we have learned at the Onoway Kwoon are not quite like the ones taught at the Stony Plain Kwoon. I don’t know if it is just that these techniques have progressed farther here in Stony and the progression has made it out to Onoway yet, or what? It is a little frustrating and unnerving, and my confidence in my knowledge of the curriculum has plunged down the sewer, I have been finding my self standing back waiting to see how things are done first instead of just jumping in and doing them. The bright side of this is that each day that I am there I learn something new or the proper way to do it and I will be able to take that back with me to Onoway in the fall.
So far it has been great training with a bunch of new people, helping out different Sifu’s that I have only seen once or twice and never while they where teaching their classes. It is a new perspective quite different then the mixed classes that we have in Onoway.
Something that I have been noticing for awhile in the Sihing class and now in the Teen and Adults classes is the some of the techniques that we have learned at the Onoway Kwoon are not quite like the ones taught at the Stony Plain Kwoon. I don’t know if it is just that these techniques have progressed farther here in Stony and the progression has made it out to Onoway yet, or what? It is a little frustrating and unnerving, and my confidence in my knowledge of the curriculum has plunged down the sewer, I have been finding my self standing back waiting to see how things are done first instead of just jumping in and doing them. The bright side of this is that each day that I am there I learn something new or the proper way to do it and I will be able to take that back with me to Onoway in the fall.
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